This is a photo of me from this past Saturday night, of my eating a bowl of ice cream with my family to celebrate a family birthday. It was a small bowl – maybe 2/3 of a cup of vanilla Haagen-Dazs. It was delicious, and I enjoyed it thoroughly and guilt free.
Afterwards, I put my bowl in the sink and went to bed.
I didn’t go back and sneak more ice cream after everyone else had fallen asleep.
I didn’t eat sugar for breakfast the next day.
Over the next few days, I didn’t fantasize about sugar incessantly.
In fact, two days later, when my son offered me some fresh, homemade strawberry ice cream, I easily passed. I didn’t want or need it.
Eating sugary treat without a binge
This – the ability to enjoy a small sugar treat; the ability to enjoy it without it turning into a free for all binge; the ability to discern when my body would enjoy ice cream, and when my body wouldn’t – felt like a miracle.
Two months ago, I shared a story of how I didn’t turn to sugar or food for comfort when I was going through a painful, difficult day. Instead, I made myself a nourishing meal of chicken, salad, and potatoes, and gave my heart the care it was truly needing to soothe my hurt.
This felt like a miracle, too.
For over 20 years, I thought that the idea that I could enjoy a small serving of sugar was impossible. In fact, I’d closed my heart to even the possibility that this could be true or real.
For over 20 years, I thought that the idea that I could make it through life’s pain and difficulties without turning to sugar or food for comfort was also impossible. And I’d closed my heart to this possibility, too.
Thank goodness I was not in charge of my healing process, and that something deeper was calling to me.
This something deeper calls to you, too.
Your dream for healing
Beloved, you also have a dream for healing – for your health, your body and your life.
- You may want to eat without feeling stressed or neurotic or anxious about what you should or shouldn’t eat.
- You may want to be able to walk around the block with your beloved without your knees hurting from extra weight
- You may want to feel free to eat ice cream on your birthday.
- You may want to be able to cope with life’s pain without turning to your favorite binge food.
These dreams arise from your heart and the soul. They are sacred and precious, something to revere. Hold them close.
When we lose faith in our dreams, often what we’ve lost is connection – the connection to our own hearts, to love, to the Divine, to each other. Like an uprooted tree, with its roots in the air, we despair, feel alone, and we can’t grow.
No wonder. Nothing can grow without roots.
When we move out of our hearts, it’s easy to lose faith. That’s because the heart is the cord of connection, what connects us to our inner guidance, and to our sense of belonging. The heart is where healing feels possible, where we are in-courage, in the heart, encouraged.
I know this can sound corny, but it’s the heart that leads you home.
Reconnect with your dream
A few days ago, I wrote an email newsletter announcing that I’m going to be changing what I offer and how I support you in transforming your relationship with food. I’ll be sharing more about these details soon, with information on how some of my courses are changing, and how you can buy them.
But for now, I simply want to share this story, and to reconnect you to the dream – the vision of healing with food – that lies in your heart. Hold it close.
I’m curious – what’s the dream in your heart with food? If you want to share below, I’d love to hear.